So why all the pictures of birds recently? It’s not just the fact I got a new camera. There’s more to it than that.
I’ve noticed something about myself in recent weeks, maybe recent months. I’ve noticed it growing and developing and finding its way deep into my soul. I’ve lost my poetry.
Not my books, or some such palpable loss, rather I’ve lost the inner rhythm which naturally seeks the heights. I’ve lost the inner rhyme, the inner agreement, and while this isn’t an emotional downturn, it is, in a way, a creative downturn, and a downturn of my soul’s yearning for the beautiful, and true, and eternal.
Sometimes, if I’m in a mood, when people ask me what I’m doing I respond with, “I stare at trees.” Most folks would see this as a sure sign of laziness.
However, for me it is an active seeking after the renewing aspects of the eternal life. If I can, in the shape and wonder of God’s creation, see the patterns of the Divine, I can renew the vision in my own soul, and begin to see eternally once more.
So, it’s felt comforting, in a way, to leave off commentary on various political, spiritual, or ecclesiastical topics. Letting my posts drift into a simplicity of nature is refreshing. I think I need it, for all the other commentary, if it is to have worth from me, depends on my renewing and refreshing the eternal perspective. And if I am going to find light and joy and purpose in all my life, I need to find this perspective and find in it the poetry which seems to have gone missing. There’s a lot more of a discussion on the topic to be had, with more nuances and whatnot.
But, for now, it felt nice to simply explain why this page has taken a bit of a turn for the time being. I’ve lost my poetry, so I look to poets of words and Creation to help me find it once more.