morning

A steller’s jay eats seed on the rail. Another screeches from a nearby branch. It is a warm morning. The sun is out bright and strong, no indication of last week’s winter wonderland. Shadows of branches sway slightly on the trunks of trees. The breeze is bare, only just. Distant vehicles at work add the only sounds besides the birds. A single spider web is exposed by the sun’s glare, stretching from sapling top to ground.

The cold is now over, the weather returns to the standard fare. And I restore my schedule. Up early to write, to update, to ponder mysterious of creativity and spirituality. My feeling today is that of wanting progress, to engage the tasks before me steadily and with renewed zeal. I’ve had a break of sorts, not quite stopping, but retreating in part, so now today I feel enthusiasm again to jump fully into the fray.

I feel excited about God’s gifts this morning, eager to rest in him and wait for practical results. There is only one thing I lack, and that is the money to sustain myself through all of this. But for that weakness, I would be very content. Then, though, I would not need faith. A simple day awaits, in which I continue to press onwards. Steadily, if not quickly, I much more the tortoise than the hare. I feel peace, really, that is all I can say. Calm before the storm? Ease in the midst of the eye? Or real peace, with the storm moving past, I do not know. It is not for me to know, I suppose, only be ready for whatever may come whether temptations of want or plenty.

This past weekend had a marker quality, I have no idea why. Some weeks drift languidly into another, little distinction, little of note. The last few days seem long in duration, important for spiritual causes. Friday seems such a distance ago. God indeed gives markers along the Way, some are harder to see certainly. All I know, is that this morning I feel like I have reached a higher rung. I cannot clarify why or how I feel this, only that something was past, and all continued to be well. May God continue to lead in and through all.